Knowingly Unknowing or Unknowingly Knowing...!!!

Weekend mania drives some kind of emotional dis balance where it should actually help in rejuvenating, it works the other way round and the result is...the blog is updated on Mondays..:)..with some food for thought...


Today its about things we know but ignore or things we thought we didn't know but we were actually skin deep into that! And the question is how often does it happen..?
Well its happening quite a lot with me nowadays and its a kinda of memory game...the only thing i do get to realize is how everything is moving in a circle..a vicious one, wherein i am like an object following the orbit and nothing else...


The major issue is, the things i know like some age old rules created by me n myself, keeps deceiving me n i fall a victim to strange circumstances...and some other times, I am not aware of things but actually i am into it n very deep and in a real mess...;)...well the so called facts of life come handy in such situations and  clear the mess up at least for a moment but it helps a great deal to surrender to my idiosyncrasies again n m back to normal...
The take home message is always the same...expectations do pinch BUT they are like drugs, get addicted or leave it for lifetime..;)...yippee..

Mind and Heart can nevr be at peace together..!!

Have you felt that u want to run but a rope is tied around our feet..or you want to speak but u are choking...??

Well its not a great feeling but sometimes it does happen and I have felt it many times. Thanks to my own idiosyncrasies, my ego and my expectations which are not unfamiliar to me but they surprise me most of the times even though i am made up of these raw materials...
Solution?? well...no idea..quest for it goes on n on n on....like a never ending road...

Can loneliness be called a virtue of someone who loves it or a curse who loves to avoid it...?
As the Murphy's Law would put forward the whole thing as......

"If there is something you must do and you cannot do it, you cannot do anything else"..., it always is great to realise the feelings but questioning them can just seem to be Jigsaw puzzle and at least the most common gesture i would show in relation to the whole scenario is to drop a few tears and move on...!!

Hats off to my strangeness and crazy beliefs..:)

Hmm...Solitude..

What is it?? A way of realizing own 'SELF' or crib about how to live alone...do we really enjoy it or at some point of time we feel its a burden of our emotions..hmm...questions do puzzle but answers to them is almost like searching for a drop of water in an ocean....:) rather the ocean itself which allows every mystery to be dissolved in  itself!

What do we imbibe in our life time??...is it how to live or how to exist or how to live and exist both...Such a tricky thing to even think of n i am sure my parents would have never ever thought that i would write such stuff on my blog n throw open questions...That brings another question to my mind as to how education helps us during the phase of solitude..?? What is it that makes us strong enough to handle situations..is it parental love or will power or both?..why are we social animals? why do we seek companionship or is it just a mind set..I will go through this mesh of confusions and shall emerge as a powerful and thoughtful human being...ha ha ha!!

Confessions to My Diary....

A million eyes to watch, a thousand shoulders to cry

Many great to talk, but I feel lost

Don’t know why...

A smile so painful on my face, tears easy to find

Trying to be happy but not worth a try...

A meaning so obvious, of the gestures I see

 I still need to run and hide from them,

As you are the one who would bid me good bye...

I was the same and I will be, even if you are gone

I’ll never let my spirit ruin my life,

Till I die!

It’s been long that I have seen you smile,

The way flowers bloom and welcome a new day

It’s been hard to hear you weep,

 At the corner of your lonely bed...

I know you long for someone

Who could reach your heart, wipe your tears

But life is harsh and so are you on yourself!

I realize that you are my reflection

And I can imbibe the pain...

I choose not to cry but wait till the dawn,

I still hope that you would smile someday...

Be lovely and gay

Desire......

Desires.....well just like these multiple dots...desires are endless....a symmetry is followed with one desire leading to another. Worse part, sometimes we do desire something but get something else. Thats what someone stated as " want want no get and get get no want". Its too difficult to suffice ourselves with 'get get no want' which comes in our way to make us realize how desparately we want something else and not this!!!

Whats to be done here....m at a fix..the answer mite be.. that if i start enjoying the so called get get no want may be it would help in coping with want want no get..:)...and surely these desire dots in the image behave like black holes reminding me of the life sucked into these dots making us want more n more leaving things hazy...desire is a crazy but truth of life and controlling black hole's amazing power is an ordeal...Hope to control it soon...:)