But the brighter side is, against all odds I am trying to fit into my thoughts to know the origin, reason and the situation behind it. It dawns to me that the thought isn't petty but the concept surely is. The situations and environmental conspiracy against my make believe world is hovering over my head to make me realize things, feel them and hold on to it or let it go. Choice is definitely mine but making that choice itself seems to a tough choice. A lot of wise people around me, inclusive of me..;)..tell me that after a certain point of the fourth dimension, it really doesn't matter whether the thoughts are worth a thought or not but I am still not convinced and against all odds I go on defending, and building up my mountains of these although i am aware that one fine day it would come down under the force of a big earthquake and things will be as real as earth, the soil and the air but no more a mountain as strong as my ego. But until then I take pain and pleasure in casting it with my own Hands, the Gigantic structure and keep seeing it grow bigger and bigger to stand on top of it and feel the sky...!!
