Mana ra Marichika

Jeebana ra e drushya bada kashtara, kahinki na epari jeebana ra chinta mora nahi ba nathila. Ete dina hela jadi mun ..mun hei rahili tebe aaji kaahin mun bhangi jauchi?

Kimba mun jaani nahi je aaji parzyanta je jibana byapana kalaa se mun na au kiye. Prati raati, dina jadi mun au kaha bisaya re bhabe kimba se dui topa luha buhaye tebe mun jeebana re kichi sikhuchi na kebala kashta bhoga karuchi mu jaane na. Hele mun aiya hi bhaabhi chalibi je eita eka prakaara ra sikhya. Manisa habara ek dharma je jaaha bhabana ek samaya re tuma 'aham' ru bali jaae, taha ek prakaara ra atulaniya ebang swachha bhabana. Mun e payee dukhita nuhe je mora jibana re mun nija chada aao kahariku adhika bhabanatmaka roopa re dekhe ba gurutwa diye, mun dukhita ee payin je mora bhabana ra gurutwa se aara manisha ta bi jadi bujhe tebe mote kichi shaanti mili jiba. Kintu ek dharma santaka je, se manisha jadi chaahena je mote bhabishya re kashta heu, tebe se mora abahela by upekshya kari paare. 

Mun kebala aiya bujhi paare na je aemiti manushya ku mun aahuri bhala roopare dekhibi na sehipari upekhya kruta drushti re dekhi, mana ku maari aagaku badhi jibi jaaha ki mo bhabisya paayin bes bhala haba. 
Eha ek kashta dayaka parajyaaya..

Admixture...

They scream, not just speak...loud and nasty. For what?...well to prove a point. Yes, everyone does want to prove something to someone all the time. Very rarely to one's own-Self.

I am sick of listening to a lot of hullabaloo about a lot of things..relevant and irrelevant. It can start from feminism, to work ethics, to values, indulgence in a social bondage called marriage, trust of a friend, faith in God, being patriotic, being creative, breaking monotony, feeling responsible, alcohol, smoking, genetic disorders, political crises, cartoon of Ambedkar to Didi's Speeches, discussions on capitalism to ignorance of mankind, failure of relations to Darwinian evolution...whatever it is ...they just scream to prove a point and not just understand it in an honest way...I am sick of it. Its the curse of being a listener, someone who cannot ignore the voices or even if tries to, gets caught somewhere. That's a weakness I need to overcome. 


I am ignorant of many things in this world and I am working towards attaining a clarity in my attempts and thoughts. I respect those who respect their thoughts, value them , condition it with changing times and again change when required, basically for survival and the appreciation of one's existence. I smile at the mob who doesn't care what it speaks, but just speaks for the heck of it. And in turn advices me to follow them or even appreciate what it does!..I can't and I won't as far as its possible and manageable I surely won't. Yes, in my own right I might not be a rebel for others to see it but for me within, it might be a struggle every moment and I value that a lot and I am not accountable for any of it to anyone except myself. 

So the point is, if one really has to talk and convince, then the first person he should convince is himself and then comes the 'others'. If its for the sake of gaining importance, smoking and drinking to impress someone, reading and getting bored and unable to comprehend but still doing it to make someone else happy, claiming that he/ she is evolving without even considering what evolution means...then I dislike everything and everyone of such kind...I would do the same to myself if and when I fall into the category called Mob. I would just try keeping my hands and head above the ever sinking mob mentality till I am able to, till I belong to myself.