I for Me

No its not me
Its not you either
Its a conspiracy
of my mind and soul!

I live, I don't live
I see but I am blinded
I cry but I can't hear
neither can you, nor can they.

I bear all inside, the toxin
the particulate rust of memories
the unopened illusion
and the crooked nights.

Tides rise but river is still,
I never thought what I will
dreams are they,
simple but shrill..

they come near, try to kill
Why? is the question
has no answer, I will not
find or try..may it pass

I close, and you take shape
Undefined and unclaimed
Far from reach so the mind speaks
A blessing in disguise!

I will and I have
to my true self if I am one,
will live or survive
for the peace within.