Against the ODDS..

Getting up in the morning with a thought as heavy as your head doesn't seem to be a great sign of a peaceful mind..
But the brighter side is, against all odds I am trying to fit into my thoughts to know the origin, reason and the situation behind it. It dawns to me that the thought isn't petty but the concept surely is. The situations and environmental conspiracy against my make believe world is hovering over my head to make me realize things, feel them and hold on to it or let it go. Choice is definitely mine but making that choice itself seems to a tough choice. A lot of wise people around me, inclusive of me..;)..tell me that after a certain point of the fourth dimension, it really doesn't matter whether the thoughts are worth a thought or not but I am still not convinced and against all odds I go on defending, and building up my mountains of these although i am aware that one fine day it would come down under the force of a big earthquake and things will be as real as earth, the soil and the air but no more a mountain as strong as my ego. But until then I take pain and pleasure in casting it with my own Hands, the Gigantic structure and keep seeing it grow bigger and  bigger to stand on top of it and feel the sky...!!

Options in Life..

Who says you have to feel bad when you consider options in life.
Option is the most important fact of life coz not everyone or everthing fits right at the same time!

Options can be better defined in terms of priorities at different time points, and dat way we can atleast know each person one by one n not mess up the whole process of understanding. But whether is it justified or not depends from individual to individual...people come into our life with a lesson and its our duty, rather responsibility to learn from each of them Good or Bad whatever.

Overcoming certain emotions might be arduous, but its worth considering the fact that it still goes to the corner of the brain where emotions are active, subtle but like a volcano... 

An option comes in handy in such cases coz it gives life a new direction and a thrust to leap forward leaving behind few miserable things or few addictive things which helps in understanding oneself better.

So options are always good when they are independent and there importance is well understood and it actually helps in finding out n number of shades of life and oneself..!!

Knowingly Unknowing or Unknowingly Knowing...!!!

Weekend mania drives some kind of emotional dis balance where it should actually help in rejuvenating, it works the other way round and the result is...the blog is updated on Mondays..:)..with some food for thought...


Today its about things we know but ignore or things we thought we didn't know but we were actually skin deep into that! And the question is how often does it happen..?
Well its happening quite a lot with me nowadays and its a kinda of memory game...the only thing i do get to realize is how everything is moving in a circle..a vicious one, wherein i am like an object following the orbit and nothing else...


The major issue is, the things i know like some age old rules created by me n myself, keeps deceiving me n i fall a victim to strange circumstances...and some other times, I am not aware of things but actually i am into it n very deep and in a real mess...;)...well the so called facts of life come handy in such situations and  clear the mess up at least for a moment but it helps a great deal to surrender to my idiosyncrasies again n m back to normal...
The take home message is always the same...expectations do pinch BUT they are like drugs, get addicted or leave it for lifetime..;)...yippee..

Mind and Heart can nevr be at peace together..!!

Have you felt that u want to run but a rope is tied around our feet..or you want to speak but u are choking...??

Well its not a great feeling but sometimes it does happen and I have felt it many times. Thanks to my own idiosyncrasies, my ego and my expectations which are not unfamiliar to me but they surprise me most of the times even though i am made up of these raw materials...
Solution?? well...no idea..quest for it goes on n on n on....like a never ending road...

Can loneliness be called a virtue of someone who loves it or a curse who loves to avoid it...?
As the Murphy's Law would put forward the whole thing as......

"If there is something you must do and you cannot do it, you cannot do anything else"..., it always is great to realise the feelings but questioning them can just seem to be Jigsaw puzzle and at least the most common gesture i would show in relation to the whole scenario is to drop a few tears and move on...!!

Hats off to my strangeness and crazy beliefs..:)

Hmm...Solitude..

What is it?? A way of realizing own 'SELF' or crib about how to live alone...do we really enjoy it or at some point of time we feel its a burden of our emotions..hmm...questions do puzzle but answers to them is almost like searching for a drop of water in an ocean....:) rather the ocean itself which allows every mystery to be dissolved in  itself!

What do we imbibe in our life time??...is it how to live or how to exist or how to live and exist both...Such a tricky thing to even think of n i am sure my parents would have never ever thought that i would write such stuff on my blog n throw open questions...That brings another question to my mind as to how education helps us during the phase of solitude..?? What is it that makes us strong enough to handle situations..is it parental love or will power or both?..why are we social animals? why do we seek companionship or is it just a mind set..I will go through this mesh of confusions and shall emerge as a powerful and thoughtful human being...ha ha ha!!